2009 Treatise – Part 5 of 5

Right now, in my life, I am attempting to be a realist. I am placing aside all the spiritual propaganda that denies taking responsibility for the quality of our personal experience. Alchemy – the conscious, compassionate containment of all our felt-experiences – is the only tool I personally know that works if consistently applied. Accordingly, I am staying as alert as possible so as to not suppress anything. I am letting it all in – letting it all be-here-now – letting it wrack my bones and twist my muscles if that is what is required. I am letting it break my heart over and over and over again, if that is what is required.

As I look out upon the theatre of the world, I see throngs of hypnotized human beings in an increasingly desperate dance for tea and cookies. This is ‘the actual scenario’ – not the one we may wish for – or hope for – or believe in. The real McCoy is that everywhere upon this planet of ours the masses are fearful and hurting – and those which are not, are sedating and controlling. This is ‘the actuality’ of our current human experience.

I know there are many who profess to looking out and seeing a world on the verge of some ‘New Age peace experience’. I think these people are drunk – or else trying to sell something – or simply hallucinating. I ignore the so-called ‘spiritual voices’ who speak of ‘oneness’, but yet obviously ignore the unintegrated condition of their own emotional imprinting – and so appear blind to the collective unintegrated emotional condition of humanity.

When I look at the number 11, I see a picture of the authentic being [1] standing beside their emotionally imprinted noise [1]. How many of us can hear our own emotionally imprinted noise above the increasing loudness of our cell phone and I-Pod society? Unless we are able to step within and perceive our own inner noise, and then take full responsibility for it by consciously containing and so integrating it, we are unconsciously driven by it into manifesting outer circumstances that become chaotic exaggerations of this inner noise.

Mastering the number 11 is a matter of consciously developing the capacity to ‘actively’ recognize, integrate, and so still our inner noise so we may hear the increasing communication being transmitted to us all from within the vibrational. This is exceedingly challenging as 1+1 = 2 [activity]. So, the primary force through 2009 is ‘2’ – which means activity, activity, and more activity! Non-stop activity.

As the Mayans and other Elders warn us, “In 2011/12/13 the sun shall speak, if we do not hear it, we shall perish from the surface of this planet.” How many among us are ‘listening’ to the Sun? Most of us run from it, hide from it, and accuse it to be an attacker coming to ruin our world. But it is not – its increasing voice comes only to ‘end the world we built out of our inner noise’. If we insist on identifying only with our noise and with the world we have built of it – the landscapes of quietness, stillness, and emptiness beckoning us back into the resonance of ‘the actual moment’ appear terrifying to us.

I too, like the Elders to whom I have done my best to give my good ear and good eye, am choosing to enter the Kiva of my heart and ‘to get myself straight with God’ – whatever this means. Obviously, what this means for me is different to what it means for you or anyone else. Only the heart contains the truth of such a revelation.

In 2009 it becomes painfully obvious there are no ‘set rules for everyone’ – there is only the richness of the actual moment communicating exactly what is required for each of us within each unfolding moment.

In 2008 our intuition called us to activate the required steps to set the stage for this inner purpose: For getting straight with ourselves. Many of us have listened, I know this. Many of us, through the Grace of the universe, listened and responded without even knowing this is what we were ‘up to’. I have seen this too. The ‘common experience’ is extremely powerful.

Now, it is a matter of becoming as quite and as still as possible so we may individually and collectively hear the subtle intricacies of the communication of the vibrational. Its voice won’t necessarily make sense – it won’t deliver us unto the fulfilling of our wants – but it will assist us to continue developing the capacity to contain what we require. This voice is only heard ‘in the moment’ – it does not speak from or to our fear, anger, and grief. It has nothing to do with our plans. It speaks only to our conscious reentry into ‘what is actual’.

Though some of you may read this letter – and because of your as yet unintegrated fear, anger, and grief, perceive it as a disturbing and fearful communication – I must tell you that I am not at all disturbed or fearful as I write it. Not even slightly. I trust the seeming chaos within the flow of this great river of life.

I have too often entered the dark contortions of my own emotional imprinting, and so know through repeated personal experience that as one approaches the moment of ‘integration of seeming opposites’, all may appear hellish. On many an occasion I have contorted into a fetal position in the darkness of my room and exclaimed, “Hell’s teeth!” But, in every occasion, by responding consciously and unconditionally to what appears to be ‘the end of my world’, a doorway has opened into a newfound perceptual paradigm containing new horizons of possibilities and probabilities.

May this be the fate of us all? 2009 may well be ‘a massive contortion’ come to cleanse us collectively – or at least to give us the opportunity to deepen our current cleansing experience. Can we greet each new convulsion consciously and without condition? We are all going to find out.

I feel for those who still run urgently into the maddening crowd because they are propelled by their own unintegrated emotional condition to ‘save this world’. Accordingly, I deeply respect all who have not been mistakenly seduced into feather-dusting the holograph – but who have instead had the courage of their inner convictions to as best as possible attempt to awaken themselves within this hallucination.

This is my personal little recommendation for 2009: Get a hobby! If you do not have a hobby, start one. If you have one – cherish it. Because, in 2009, if we do not have the capacity to ‘potter about seemingly meaninglessly’ – we will definitely be drawn into the dramas of others – and into their vain and fruitless attempts to mend a broken, outdated machine [con-trap-shun] so many still believe necessary to fix.

A simple hobby gives one an outer point of focus while the inner quietly and consistently practices the art of ‘watching the story’ and ‘containing the felt-vibrations’. In 2009, a hobby that appears outwardly as ‘meaningless to others’ may well be the most profoundly efficient ‘spiritual practice’ available to us.

Personally, I am going to grow cactus, play my Native American flute in the bath, write an actuality fiction adventure, practice the art of ‘rain-making’, attempt consistent communication with Orbs, and other completely meaningless endeavors. And, every now and then I shall curiously switch on the TV and watch ‘the greatest show on earth’.

I am as ready as I can be for 2009. However, I have no illusions about any clean-sailing. These are ‘the rapids of our timeline’ in which a moment’s lapse in alertness may be devastating. [‘Rapid’ is a word which has an appropriate double-meaning.]

I depart 2008 and enter 2009 with awe and gratitude. I am glad I received a ticket for this one! The seating from my ‘point of view’ is not too shabby either. I am glad you are here with us all.

From the center of my heart to the center of yours – I send the deepest of love I am able to muster. Onward, inward, and upward then…or not…

Michael Brown